Hiv adult single dating
I thought it was a formality I should finally take care of.
I kept asking the nurse who took me upstairs at the Margaret Sanger Center in the East Village for a second blood test to confirm the rapid test result.
Undetectable means is that the amount of HIV virus in my blood cannot be detected by a lab test.
When a person goes on treatment — I take one pill a day — undetectable is the goal.
I was in shock that simply sleeping with probably close to a hundred men throughout my 20s — in college, in Rome, Italy where I lived for five years, in New York City upon my return — and not being strict about using condoms could have such a serious consequence.
I grew up during the HIV/AIDS crisis and should have known better, but as a heterosexual woman, I equated safe sex with not getting pregnant more than with getting an STI, let alone HIV. It's embarrassing to admit that now, but I really did ignorantly think sex was all fun and games.
There was a positive aspect to my HIV, though I didn't know that then.
I naively thought I was invincible, that one day a hookup would lead to true Disney princess-style love, and never assumed that HIV would have anything to do with my life.
After my diagnosis, Matt and I stopped making dinner together, speaking to each other, and sleeping in the same bed.
We broke up, but still fall into bed together now and again, as one does with ex-boyfriends. There have been This summer, I tried to disclose my status on dating apps around that moment when they suggest meeting up IRL.
It was messy, but my relationship with him taught me that being HIV positive doesn't have to be a barrier to intimacy, physical or emotional, and being scared to disclose hurt others more than myself. This feels necessary because in New York City, at least, dating apps tend to be used for hookups more than for finding a soulmate.
I got lucky for a little while and seriously dated a man for about a year, though I had initially lied to him for two months about my status.